Monday, January 10, 2011

The end of we ..


People fall in love, and they get together.
At the beginning of a relationship, its usually really.. hot. There's a spark in it that makes us eager to see the other one again, to just hold each other, kiss, sniff, hug, touch, to eat popcorns at the last row of the cinema with a little bit of smooching, or just staying up the whole night talking on the phone, or just look at each other and say nothing.
There's a lot of things you want to do together, and you think you dont spend enough time with each other. Going out for one whole day feels short; not seeing the other one or talking to him/her feels like it has been forever. You count the days, the minutes, the seconds, till you can finally see the other person. We long for all the little things. The feelings of the butterflies fluttering in the stomach, embarrassed just because we're shy to say something, accidental contact, the jelly knees when you're nervous. It all just happens when you're with that somebody.

It's beautiful. Those little little things that show signs of a first love, or a fresh start of a relationship. The funny little things we do such as clearing our throat right before somebody calls so our 'hello' doesnt sound like crap. You try to be the perfect one for them. It can be possible, but it is not easy.

The smell of a fresh love may fade away after a period of time, the texts gets lesser, the butterflies disappeared, no more late night calls, the popcorns.. Whats left behind may make you feel like crap. Both of you may still be in love, but there isn't little things that spark things up anymore. The relationship became dull, and you've lost interest. The feeling of constant connection between the both of you lead to an environment full of errors, perhaps jealousy. Its hard to believe that in the beginning, both of you were once so.. together. All the things you had in common has changed, arguements starts to increase, disagreements, misunderstandings. You can't even talk about the simplest things which you used to do, not even the weather. A simple how are you sounds burdenful, and all you can reply is ' i'm ok ', and then there's the awkward silence.

What you have shared previously, made or did together, you're on our own again. As the days passed, you realised things dont work out anymore, and the best thing you can do is to walk into a different direction, leaving everything behind. You are no longer able to take part in the other person's life, and everything left behind was nothing but a heartache and emptiness. There's just an emptiness in your heart, void.





Many people walk into our lives, you are lucky enough to find that one person you can share everything with, joy, sorrows, tears.. But people leave, they come and they go. Perhaps there's only a handful of ones that stays, those are the ones, we keep.