I promise someday you will REGRET losing me & you will think back and say "DAMN! that girl really DID love me .. "

CHEER UP!

I've been through the feeling you're going those now (:

when you come up in front of me , completing the whole image . (: even if i once tasted bitternesss, soueness or sweetness , only happiness will remain .

Nothing gonna change my love for you (:

if i had to live my life without you near me
如果我不得不过一种没有你陪伴的生活
the days would all be empty              
白天会变得很空虚  
the nights would seem so long           
黑夜会变得很漫长  
you i see forever oh so clearly            
我看见你 是如此的清晰
i might have been in love before           
我可能曾经爱过
but i've never felt this strong               
但从没有像这次感觉这般强烈 
our dreams are young and we both know  
我们两个都知道 我们的梦想还很年轻 
they’ll  take us where we want to go         
它们会带我们到达我们向往的地方
hold me now   touch me now             
现在 抱紧我 触摸我
i don't want to live without you             
我不想过没有你的生活

nothing's gonna change my love for you      
没有什么能够改变我对你爱
you oughta know by now how much i love you 
你现在应该知道我有多爱你
one thing you can be sure of                
你可以确信一点 
i never ask for more than your love          
除了你的爱 我别无所求
 nothing's gonna change my love for you   
没有什么能够改变我对你的爱
you oughta know by now how much i love you  
你现在应该知道我有多爱你 
the world may change my whole life through   
这世界可能会将我的一生改变
but nothing's gonna change my love for you   
但没有什么能够改变我对你的爱

if the road ahead is not so easy               
如果前面的路不是那么容易走  
our love will lead the way for us    like a guiding star          
我们的爱会像启明星一样迎领我们前行  
i'll be there for you if you should need me      
当你可能需要我时 我就会出现
you don't have to change a thing         
你不需要做什么改变  
i love you just the way you are         
我爱你 就爱你现在这样
so come with me and share the view 
所以 跟我来吧 一起分享风景
i help you see forever too         
我会永远帮助你去感受
hold me now    touch me now   
现在 抱紧我 触摸我
i don't want to live without you     
我不想过没有你的生活

FUCK! MY LIFE IS GONNA END SOON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well ,feel something is gonna happen soon :(
My brother is keep hating me just now x(
omg ! bad new here !
today hang out with william lester eugene jason jacob shelley kenney and alex!
we're going ou at 12 something, after that we go cenima to watch movie ! "HOMECOMING & FASTER(2D)! sound so werid right? x(
EUGENE keep chat with shelley , you guy know wat the topic they're talkinG ?! let me tell urs ! is abt "SEX" .__.
THEY ARE SO FUCKING HAM SUP !

The end of we ..

People fall in love, and they get together.
At the beginning of a relationship, its usually really.. hot. There's a spark in it that makes us eager to see the other one again, to just hold each other, kiss, sniff, hug, touch, to eat popcorns at the last row of the cinema with a little bit of smooching, or just staying up the whole night talking on the phone, or just look at each other and say nothing.
There's a lot of things you want to do together, and you think you dont spend enough time with each other. Going out for one whole day feels short; not seeing the other one or talking to him/her feels like it has been forever. You count the days, the minutes, the seconds, till you can finally see the other person. We long for all the little things. The feelings of the butterflies fluttering in the stomach, embarrassed just because we're shy to say something, accidental contact, the jelly knees when you're nervous. It all just happens when you're with that somebody.

It's beautiful. Those little little things that show signs of a first love, or a fresh start of a relationship. The funny little things we do such as clearing our throat right before somebody calls so our 'hello' doesnt sound like crap. You try to be the perfect one for them. It can be possible, but it is not easy.

The smell of a fresh love may fade away after a period of time, the texts gets lesser, the butterflies disappeared, no more late night calls, the popcorns.. Whats left behind may make you feel like crap. Both of you may still be in love, but there isn't little things that spark things up anymore. The relationship became dull, and you've lost interest. The feeling of constant connection between the both of you lead to an environment full of errors, perhaps jealousy. Its hard to believe that in the beginning, both of you were once so.. together. All the things you had in common has changed, arguements starts to increase, disagreements, misunderstandings. You can't even talk about the simplest things which you used to do, not even the weather. A simple how are you sounds burdenful, and all you can reply is ' i'm ok ', and then there's the awkward silence.

What you have shared previously, made or did together, you're on our own again. As the days passed, you realised things dont work out anymore, and the best thing you can do is to walk into a different direction, leaving everything behind. You are no longer able to take part in the other person's life, and everything left behind was nothing but a heartache and emptiness. There's just an emptiness in your heart, void.





Many people walk into our lives, you are lucky enough to find that one person you can share everything with, joy, sorrows, tears.. But people leave, they come and they go. Perhaps there's only a handful of ones that stays, those are the ones, we keep.

Stay- miley

Well it's good to hear your voice

I hope you're doing fine

and if you ever wonder

I'm lonely here tonight

Lost here in this moment

Time keeps slipping by

If i could have just one wish

I have you by myside

ohhh, i miss you

ohhh,i need you

And i love you more than i did before

And if today i don't see your face

Noting changed no one take your place

It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before

And i'm sorry it's this way

But i'm coming home, i'll be coming home

And if you ask me,i'll stay!i'll be stay.

Well, i tired to live without you

But tears fall from my eyes

I'm alone and i feel empty

I'm torn apart inside

I took up at the starts

Hoping you are doing the same

And somehow i feel closer

And i canhear you say.

when theres nothing left to be done or said,

its best to just end things.

cause no matter how hard I try to tell or express myself

you don't care and continue being selfish!

thats who you are and you will never change.



END of everything we've been through.



screw you!

I don't have a reason to hold on

Nov 1

Sometimes, its better not to think about how I feel and just focus on work. Maybe it's time to push away any sort of feelings and be immune to emotions for a while. I know I might turn out to be this cold-hearted person, but maybe it might bring me more benefits.
I know no matter how many people care and worry for me, it's my part to play if I want to feel better. I can't depend on people to cheer me up, can't expect much from people.If I want something, I got to pull myself together and do it myself! I'm upset, but its only for me to decide whether I want to move on with life or allow myself to be upset.


Maybe one day, I might forgive you. But it won't be anytime soon. =(

oh the bitchyness!

Oct 31

Oh, don't expect me to give a damm about you!
You fickle-minded person!

DECIDE!

Don't tell me one thing and do another the next!
Who do you think you are?
You're on the verge of slipping out of my "ok" list.
Don't play with fire, boy cause it ain't gonna be pretty.


Don't trigger my bitchy mode cause I doubt you would ever want to encounter it!

i can tell you I'm alright, I can look happy, but am I really that?

Recently, I have been either annoyed or feeling down. It has been a very rough week for me (with exams and extreme stress levels to cope with). Yet, when I feel like sitting down to talk to someone about it, nothing is able to come out. I don't want to share because I'm afraid of being judged. Sometimes, when I allow myself to think about it and tell someone, I tend to judge myself in the end. I feel bothered by something, I know it; but I haven't allowed myself to think about it.

And tonight, I did, I feel down. I only have one question, "why?" I just want that to be answered. :(

Theres no place for me to vent my sadness anymore :(
I don't want to remember anything that has happened this semester. I just can't wait to fly back home where I can finally forget things and be happy. I am holding on to this holiday! I promise myself to be a different person.I don't want to remember anything that has happened this semester. I just can't wait to fly back home where I can finally forget things and be happy. I am holding on to this holiday! I promise myself to be a different person.
One thing I learnt in life, don't care about things too much. It'll eventually eat you up inside if things backfires and turns out to be the exact opposite.

good night. one paper left to go.

thank for nothing!

you're back to who you used to be
AND I HATE IT!

When I finally had enough of your nonsense..

Why do i even bother having arguments with you when I know for sure that you're going to bring up the past again and ruin everything! you can never stop having heated arguments with me. Maybe we really are two different people from two very different worlds. You never bothered to understand me from the start. Yeah, you probably should have continued dating that girl. Regretting now?


If you liked her so much, then why bother me? Sometimes, when you try to argue your case, you know that you are in the wrong and yet because of your ego, you can never admit it. Why? Because you don't want to admit it's your fault when clearly it is. Then, all you ever know how to do is bring up the past and try and accuse. How mature of you. really!


Do you not know that i had a very bad day? Isn't it enough that I am already upset? Why do you always have to go and upset me knowing what I have gone through.


Now, i give up.


I am leaving things up to you to decide for yourself but one thing I know for sure. I will not turn back anymore and accept your apology for the don't know how many millionth time. Enough is enough. You choose to go your way, I choose mine. I have had it with you and your nonsense.


Now, goodbye!

I'm afraid to allow anyone to hold my hands and be apart of my life because of the pain I've been through. It scares me to even know that sooner or later this person is going to be the same and hurt me. Then I'll have to slowly piece back my broken heart again by trying EVEN HARDER to be a stronger person.


sometimes, it's better to be alone than to be hurt by being with someone.


=( good night.

the hurt,pain won't go away..

I wish you knew how this feels like. Waiting and waiting and waiting all night long, hoping to see that grey icon turn green.

Why can others care about me so much and you can't when you say you love me? I don't understand.
I did everything I could for you before, sacrificed so much time and effort to do ANYTHING you wanted me to do and now, you can't even do one small thing to make me happy.


=( You hurt me. you make me sad. and here I am still hoping and waiting for you to come online to talk to me.


Maybe when you said you love me, it's not true. Maybe you say it to others as well, thats why they reply "love you" in return.


Thanks once again for hurting me and for making me understand why people give up on love.


Why do you have to push me to this point? Am I not unhappy enough for you?
Every day I try a little harder to be stronger.
I'm starting to turn emotionless.
My heart is slowly turning into stone.
I am slowly giving up on guys and even love.
I don't trust, can't trust and don't believe that theres a decent guy out there anymore.

when it come to you,all i even want to do is scream my head off!

You are not worth my time!
So I'm moving on with my life ..and I'm leaving you behind to dwell on your own damm issues!